Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The LONG break..!

Hello All,

This blog jus shares my current phase of life which persuaded to write the previous write-up.

Life here is very different from Bangalore. Bangalore has my parents, relatives, my work and most importantly, my friends. I never realized how friends had played such an important role in my life. The lunches n dinners, the trips n team outings, the bowling n karting, the movies n masti.. Life's was never so complete and happening. But, this doesn't mean I was completely dependent on them, they jus formed the very important routine of my life. Here, I've no friends to celebrate our weekends, no relatives to celebrate our festivals, n no positive energy to celebrate our day..! Life here is monotonous, making me lazy and lazy.. to go out, to do things i want to do.. n here i sink in loneliness..!


I've to find my way out of the depressing  maizes I've built around me. I'm bored of being like this. I'm sick of the monotonous life. I want my life back..!


A ray of hope arrives with Ishwar. This is what he says "Its difficult to adapt to change suddenly.  Its always how you look at things. Life's teaching you to be completely independent. This is the best time I've got, the best break of your life. Utilize this time to do things u always wanted to but, haven't done. Build up your personality, your confidence and YOU.."
I jus wanted to tell my friends sailing in my boat, its always how u look at things..! whenever ur depressed try to see the other side of the cause.
I wanna make this LONG break the BEST break. I'm helping myself to look and think differently, to raise from the sinking moods, to do what i want and to luv how i'm..

Hoping this RAY leads me to the right destination..!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

khali road..

Again this is one of my posts that was in the drafts, representing my state of mind then.
I'm glad that I went through that phase to respect and cherish the phase I'm currently in.





As i waited with Ishwar outside our house in front of a 'khali (empty) road' thoughts flowed..

that road resembled my life.. the road led to many places, many destinations.. people who knew their destinations were clearly guided and taken there by this road..i was in a middle of a good journey.. i stood there wondering where to go or if i should go..!
I always went with people who joined me in the race of life but, din know if that's where exactly i wanted to go and if i should go..!

I don't understand why i don't  know as to what should i be doing.. where should   going.. why am i directionless?  why cant i understand myself what do i really want..?

May be I've never given quality time to myself when needed.. just went with flow.. never thought if i should have gone.. so m lost in the flow trying to find my identity.. do I exist.. or its just ME..!

and should i take this 'khali road'..